✨I want the best for her, even though i see that i could never fulfill those level of standards on which i described the best.
😃I want her to be happy, even though i always pick up numerous arguments with her, at every end of it i just want to hug her tightly, to never let go. She's the most forgiving , she always forgive. She doesn't want to leave me with anger, so neither will me.
🤺I want her to be safe, even though I knew she doesn't like me to be worry all the time. But i will always concern on her safety, she's my everything, i dont want anything to hurt her which includes myself. Maybe that's the reason why sometimes, i hate myself.
I love every inch of her, every single time. Even though we fall into frequent numerous arguments.
I am sure is a fool. She could played me so easily. I have trust issue that stuck up to me, overthinking much of the time, due to my scars from previous relationships.
I was like a snake that changes its skin. My previous relationships had me change my skin several times, making me turn into different person, different personalities, polluting me into the worst person than who i was before. It is not their fault, it is always me. it was my decision to take the negativity out of those relationship although i knew it would jeopardize my state of mind.
Nevertheless,
I sure do hope that she would never played with my heart like the others did.
I am really in love with her, grateful for her presence. I hope she feel the same for me. If this was an investment, I sure putting my whole on the table. haha 🤣
I really hope that she never take me for granted.
But i was never the one to control what fate written for us, this thought got the control for my insecurities.
I leave it all to the almighty and my best effort to be her Mr. Right.
In the end, we already know that love do hurt. But in the long run, it is not always the happiness that we sought. It is the possibility for a heartbreak. Am i entirely ready for that worst possibility, the heartbreak ? The feeling of being slammed over and over and over again. For me, I can live with that. I think so.
But one thing I am freaking sure of - That I Love her, I am really sure of that fact.
After all that we have been through this far, It got me convinced that she would be with me together facing ups and down in life.
