3rd Quater of 20s

 Hello Guys,

How have you guys been doing ? Good ?

Nama aku arep, dah lama aku tak melaram menulis sebarang nukilan dalam hikayat digital aku ni. Pejam celik umur aku dah nak cecah awal 30-an. Bila umur kita dah makin meningkat ni, sebagai lelaki banyak perkara yang kita akan mula bimbangkan. For me, aku mula bimbang tentang well being aku dan my own expectation on whats coming. 

Well, semua tu subjektif, kita melihat segala perkara berdasarkan apa yang kita inginkan. Untuk aku pula, aku mempunyai insecurities yang tinggi. Terlampau banyak what if yang muncul semenjak dua menjak ni.

What if i couldnt make it to 30
What if i couldnt make my spouse happy
What if i couldnt make a mentally healthy career path before 40
...dan sebagainya...

Dont get me wrong here, aku bukan yang jenis - Member pakai honda, aku pon nak pakai honda.

Bukannn...

Aku hanya compare achievement aku based on diri aku sendiri, keep it to myself. 
Aku bukan yang jenis kompetetif dengan orang sekeliling aku. Rezeki kita berlainan.

Aku cuma bimbang akan tercicirnya tanggungjawab aku dan martabat aku sebagai lelaki.

Sepanjang hidup aku, aku hanya look up to my abah as a life figure.

Dia tak kaya, Dia tak juga miskin, Dia berserdahana. Cuma yang paling penting bagi dia adalah maruah, martabat, pride & dignity. 

He always provide an example of a man who put integrity first. Tak kisah sejauh manapun cabaran tu, dia tetap akan lakukan perkara yang betul.

At first aku banyak put blames on other things around me, but then aku realize yang ada jugak punca tu datang dari diri aku sendiri. Sikap aku. Aku dah lose my balance. Corrupted by lust.

I just wanted the best, by the best means by my own definition on 'the best' and i have been living a moderate life. But its seems that it is too hard to achieve that.

Hmmm, letih dah ni fikir persoalan yang besar ni. :Siapa aku". 

By then, Aku masih mencari identiti diri aku.

So far, for update - Currently aku berjaya sampai ke tahap yang aku nak. 

Dulu aku pernah tak henti berdoa nak dapat kerja sebagai engineer, sekarang dah 2.5 tahun aku jadi Engineer. Dulu aku pernah berdoa nak dapat gaji besar, dan sekarang aku dapat. Cuma, aku masih rasa tak cukup, adakah aku dah mula rasa tak bersyukur ? Aku rasakan yang aku yang dulu lebih bahagia dari aku yang sekarang. Hurm, aku rasa ni adalah soalan permulaan untuk diri aku. Why?

Why am i feeling this way ? Dugaan untuk aku, setiap hari tak rasa tenang. Or is it cuma aku punya perspektif tentang apa yang aku miliki sekarang ? I still confuse bro. This is the first, i share this into my blog still. A digital monologue yang hanya akan terbuku di sini. A loose end. To you reader.

A post without images or entertainment sentences.

Truthfully, Arep.

MY THOUGHTS OF HER

 ✨I want the best for her, even though i see that i could never fulfill those level of standards on which i described the best. 

😃I want her to be happy, even though i always pick up numerous arguments with her, at every end of it i just want to hug her tightly, to never let go. She's the most forgiving , she always forgive. She doesn't want to leave me with anger, so neither will me. 

🤺I want her to be safe, even though I knew she doesn't like me to be worry all the time. But i will always concern on her safety, she's my everything, i dont want anything to hurt her which includes myself. Maybe that's the reason why sometimes, i hate myself. 

I love every inch of her, every single time. Even though we fall into frequent numerous arguments.

I am sure is a fool. She could played me so easily. I have trust issue that stuck up to me, overthinking much of the time, due to my scars from previous relationships. 

I was like a snake that changes its skin. My previous relationships had me change my skin several times, making me turn into different person, different personalities, polluting me into the worst person than who i was before. It is not their fault, it is always me. it was my decision to take the negativity out of those relationship although i knew it would jeopardize my state of mind.

Nevertheless, 

I sure do hope that she would never played with my heart like the others did.
I am really in love with her, grateful for her presence. I hope she feel the same for me. If this was an investment, I sure putting my whole on the table. haha  🤣

I really hope that she never take me for granted. 

But i was never the one to control what fate written for us, this thought got the control for my insecurities.

I leave it all to the almighty and my best effort to be her Mr. Right.

In the end, we already know that love do hurt. But in the long run, it is not always the happiness that we sought. It is the possibility for a heartbreak. Am i entirely ready for that worst possibility, the heartbreak ? The feeling of being slammed over and over and over again. For me, I can live with that. I think so.

But one thing I am freaking sure of - That I Love her, I am really sure of that fact.

After all that we have been through this far, It got me convinced that she would be with me together facing ups and down in life. 

MY LOVE LIFE 2020

Assalamualaikum, Salam Kuarantin Malaysia.

Dah dapat BSH belum? Sure ke nak keluarkan duit KWSP tu? 

Kalau keluarkan make sure guna as a last resort je tau, 500 per month, in total 3 riban in 6 months boh! Banyak! Keluarkan untuk preparation kalau ade keperluan recession in upcoming years.

Dah lama tak post. in this range of age, kita semua memang busy dengan kerja dan macam-macam. Tanggungjawab bertambah dan expectation pon makin tinggi.

SO,

The intention of this short post is to record my Love life in 2020 which is so recent but i am too excited and gemuruh at the same time i had to make a post to remember this moment regardless whichever happen in next 5 to 6 months. What a boring topic right? Its my blog!!! I post whatever i want here! hahahaha.

I've met this one fine young lady through her cousin-in-law which is also my work colleague since 5th December 2019, dan masih lagi bersama dengannya. I am trying to work things out. She is one of the kind in my dating experience cause we knew each other in a short period of time and decided to express and dedicated our feelings in the most obvious way. 

Ada ja member aku duk kata "step hang salah, better to slow things down by berkawan dlu then bila mampu barulah go ahead ajak dating". Hah! Kisah ape aku, aku dah kena panahan syinta kot. Bukan senang hati aku terbukak.

But, i dont think that theory relevant. 

Sebab?

Kalau theory to relevant why my previous relationship failed? 

For me, Bukan step yang patut dipersalahkan, it is finding the compatibility and mutual understanding in a relationship. 

Takpelah, we make thing better out of the worse. Like my previous relationship, In any failure we can learn. 

Orang tua banyak makan garam, kita pon tengah makan garam jugak ni, depending on how many portion garam kita makan. Banyakkan risiko, makan garam portion besar-besar, nanti banyak benda boleh belajar even in love life relationship. Paling perit pun menangis dan menyesal seumur hidup kalau gagal, 

Anyhow, Aku tak suka kalau berkenan dekat someone without acknowledging their family members about my intention, so i did the best i could by jumpa mama dia, jumpa family members dia. I am seriously wanted to be fully committed, There is a lot of differences between us, but the difference does not majorly effecting our relationship. 

We both barely knew each other, masih lagi dalam tempoh perkenalan. But it is quite hard to have a relationship dalam keadaan dua-dua mempunyai kerjaya masing-masing. We both have patience for each other's attitudes. Bergaduh pon selalu, cuma dua-dua cepat sejuk. I like her though.

The question; WHY?

I fall in love with her due to ;-

• Her kindness even though she isn't capable in helping, but she give her best.
• Her Smile, it is obviously what every man could say about their partner. It is CUTE!
• Her Strength, I cannot tell you what shes been through in her life, I just can describe her as a strong woman for making it this far.
• Her perspective towards a relationship - susah sama-sama, senang sama-sama.
• Her cute laugh.
• Her efforts.

I could list a lot more. In other hand i should keep that list in my mind for myself.

Heart-Broken....

Falling in love again even though each of us have experienced heart broken post-relationship situation. Hence, Some of us tak willing untuk go through that situation again and eventually we decide to close the door to our heart permanently. It is okay in doing so, kita merancang, dan yang memiliki hati kita adalah Allah. 

But, Serapat mana kita tutup pintu hati kita, kalau ditentukan untuk bertemu seseorang yang mempunyai kunci hati kita, we cannot do anything to defy our desire. We are the creations not the creator.

Bagi aku, bercinta is an investment of time. In terms of duit, takde la wasteful pon sebab duit datang dan pergi, Allah yang bagi so why should berkira in terms of duit, tapi kenalah berpada-pada.

Kita mungkin dikaburi janji dan budi sampai tidak terlihat kepastian hati tentang perasaan kita terhadap seseorang. Aku harap she wont dikaburi oleh janji dan budi aku sehingga dia too late to realize yang she doesnt love me like she used to before. I still love her bro, but maybe due to my boring personality she lost her interest in having me as her partner.

Aku mengharapkan aku dan dia mempunyai jodoh yang panjang, I hope aku compatible dengan dia. But for now I have to do my best in making her to be comfortable around me. Aku ni pulak species monotonous. I didnt have a lot to offer but I will do my best in improving myself. I hope she would do the same for me.

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 NOW LET'S TALK ABOUT SOME FACT, LET'S GET SERIOUS !!! 

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Sebagai seorang lelaki, we have to think and plan the best we could for the future.

Ade yang prefer membeli rumah sebelum kahwin, ada jugak yang tidak - samada tidak mampu ataupun mahu mencari dan usaha bersama-sama dengan pasangan. 

Tak semua lelaki mampu, especially myself. Truthfully, aku memang insecure dengan keadaan aku sekarang. 

Any woman would prefer to favors any man who have the potential of providing the best for her life. Betul, I do agree. In our situation, most single men in Malaysia are incapable of doing so.

Meh kita lihat statistik purata Umur kahwin bagi Lelaki dan Perempuan di Malaysia.

Secara puratanya , 3.1 tahun beza wey.

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" hasil kajian KPKM-5, umur purata perkahwinan bagi lelaki dan perempuan semakin meningkat iaitu kepada 29.3 tahun bagi lelaki dan 26.2 tahun bagi perempuan. "

Abdul Shukur berkata, hasil analisis itu juga mendapati tiga sebab utama lelaki masih belum berkahwin ialah pertama disebabkan oleh masalah kewangan yang merekodkan sebanyak 56 peratus, diikuti tiada calon sesuai (18.4 peratus) dan mendahulukan kemajuan kerjaya (9.4 peratus).

Katanya, bagi perempuan pula isunya tiada calon yang sesuai iaitu sebanyak 35.7 peratus diikuti masalah kewangan (26.0 peratus) dan kemajuan kerjaya (18.1 peratus).

Sumber : https://www.bharian.com.my/berita/nasional/2019/05/564169/penduduk-lelaki-melebihi-perempuan

OK

Anyhow, 

1. untuk LELAKI BUJANG - 3 Factor;

1. Masalah kewangan - sebanyak 56% (more than half)

2. Tiada Calon Sesuai - sebanyak 18.4%

3. Kerjaya - sebanyak (9.4%)

2. untuk WANITA BUJANG - 3 Factor;

1. Tiada Calon Sesuai - sebanyak 35.7%

2. Masalah Kewangan - sebanyak 26%

3. Kerjaya - sebanyak 18.1%

Evaluate ourselves and letakkan diri kita in which percentage.

The effect also come from cultural causes. 

Kita semua pun tahu dengan beban ekonomi di malaysia, menyebabkan susah untuk kita reduce that 56% percentage from our table. Without regarding other causes macam psycho-economical factors orang bujang yang willing untuk spend without considering to practice delay of gratifications for future profts. Which is also aku consider caused by cultural behavior kita.

Dengan kos perkahwinan yang tinggi dari segi hantaran dan majlis kenduri kendara, ada yang decide untuk ambil aeon credit loan sampai berpuluh ribu dan willing untuk tanggung hutang walaupun sampai ke anak yang ke 5. 

Beriba Riba kau balun, tu pun kalaulah jodoh panjang, Imagine if you spent 40k on a couple of days wedding including the hantaran itself menggunkan financial loan, and a few months later dah sembur talak. What a waste man. 

Aku jenis yang tak suka hutang unless it is truly a necessity to do so. I rather live poor rather than living lavishly in bank percentage of high interests. 

Jom Rungkaikan Dilemma ini in the most simple and idiotic way possible!

Percentage

1. Masalah kewangan Lelaki satu kali ganda lebih dari masalah kewangan Wanita bujang. 

2. Masalah Tiada calon sesuai lelaki kurang 1 kali ganda dari wanita bujang.
3. Masalah Kerjaya Wanita kurang satu kali ganda dari lelaki bujang.

Terangkan situasi berkenaan bagi kaum lelaki ? 

Cause example - Amat dan Ain 

; So, Amat actually ready nak kahwin and eventually belah Ain mintak hantaran 30k, Amat hanya mampu 8k sahaja. So Ain terpaksa reject dan Amat terpaksa akur.

Effect Example - Untuk Lelaki a.k.a Amat :

: Lepas pada kejadian itu Amat dah malas nak bercinta, Bila Azam tanya kenapa tak kahwin lagi, Amat relate dengan previous situation dia dan conclude bahawa dia tak mampu dari segi Kewangan, dan memandangkan setiap calon mintak hantaran above 20k, Amat juga conclude dia Tidak jumpa dengan calon yang sesuai, so Amat fikir lebih elok dia Fokus kepada kerjaya untuk dapatkan 30k berkenaan. 

Beberapa tahun kemudian.........Alhamdulillah, dengan kadar inflasi dan kos sara hidup dari semasa ke semasa, Amat berjaya berkahwin pada umur 60 tahun dengan Hantaran sebanyak 60k yang dikatakan releven pada tahun itu.

Hehehe, Sorry guys aku melawak je.

This is an economical issue, dari segi jodoh - mana yang wajib, makruh dan tidak wajib kita serahkan kepada ketentuan ilahi. Dengan akhir zaman macam sekarang susah untuk pihak Wanita dan Lelaki untuk mencari calon yang sesuai.  

Macam mana calon yang sesuai tu??

Jawapan-nya adalah subjectif kepada diri kita sendiri. Cantik ? Cun? Kaya? Beriman? macam-macam boleh kita describe. Tapi tak semua kita boleh dapat, mana ada all-in-one guys. Kau pon sape nak demand banyak-banyak? 

SO that is it! 

Akhir kata, semoga kita dapat sembuh dari wabak pandemik Covid-19 ni dengan secepat mungkin. 

Doakan aku dan calon wife aku dipanjangkan jodoh ke jinjang pelamin. Ameeen

MAKAN-MAKAN AT BANDAR BARU BANGI ! -part 1

Hey guys, how are ya doin? I hope you all are in a good health.

I doesnt have much kind of a time to do some new post these days, i have been busy working and busting my way doing my job.

So anyhow, based from my post title,

YES,

I want to post about my Food Adventure Experience.
I may not be a professional food reviewer,
but I do love Combination of
Nice Food + Good Company + Great Environment.

I am not from Bandar Baru Bangi at all, I came all the way from Terengganu, the homeland for Kerepok Lekor ( Fish Crackers, Fishcakes and all other food that involve fish)

I first came to Bandar Baru Bangi on July 2013, I took my engineering diploma here. Couple years later I also found a permanent job here in Bandar Baru Bangi. I like to consider Bandar Baru Bangi as the City of Knowledge for its houses several educational institution such as National University Malaysia, Kolej University Poly Mara, Unikl Malaysia-French Institute, German-Malaysian Institute, Institute Pengajian Guru and so much more lah!

Back to the topic, Recently, me and my friends were on food hunting, One of my friend , Syakir suggested a rural Cafe located at Seksyen 8. The restaurant was called Nim's Little Island Cafe.

Click this link for the location ! - https://goo.gl/maps/DXLXqTqDPBQ2

It was my first experience to have a late night dinner there. Usually we went to Suraya Thai Cuisine at Seksyen 7. I rate it 4/5 stars because of a few factors.

Firstly,

The environment, I miss the old kampung-kampung feeling. Nim's little island cafe does located in a kampung area, the area was calm and a bit far from the hectic main roads. The air was breezy, the cafe is surrounded by small trees.

Second, The Menu. Nim's little island cafe doesnt really have more than 7 pages kind of menu, but the menu does made my day. When the lovely waiter was taking our food order, my friend (Mat) ordered a Happy Soda (Soda Gembira). "Akak, Soda Gembira satu".

I then take a look of the menu and I ordered Soda Sedih (Sad Soda)

The food order service was fast. Well, maybe cause there werent a lot of costumer that night, maybe just 3 to 4 tables were occupied including us. But still the food came as quick as me finishing my food. hahahaha. I will come back again to Nim's Little Island of course just to order another kind of food. Mat said that i should try their special Seafood Coconut Tom Yum soup, but I tried another one of their special food instead.

Tadaaaa

I dont really remember the name of this meal, but it had somekind of combination between Chicken and Honey, and it was AWESOME! Look at the Presentation!!!! The chicken is delicious, the soy sauce is sweet and the soup is beyond my expectation.

The third reason was the Price, Nim's Little cafe has reasonable pricing range for their food. I dont mind to mingle here every night but I do have to be aware for my financial condition. hahahaha

Dah, goodnight guys, post pendek je. Goodnight, esok kerja!!!

GMI GPA AND CGPA CALCULATOR - DOWNLOAD JE

Hello Guys, especially budak2 GMi yang tengah study tuuu atau tengah wat bende laen. Untuk aku, aku skarang tengah tengok gambar emma watson ni. Meh share sket.




Ok, back to the topic. Arini aku ade buat something untuk student GMi.
Pada 18 December 2014, aku ade post cara nak kira CGPA dan GPA berpandukan gred pemarkahan kat German Malaysian Institute. Kat bawah ni dye punye link untuk post tu.



Nie ha : Tekan kalau nk tengok
http://arifkentutlagi.blogspot.my/2014/12/german-malaysian-institute-gpa-for-what.html



Tapi kali ni, aku ade create fail microsoft excel untuk tolong korang calculate GPA dan CGPA korang. So, Korang boleh download fail excel tu sebagai open source melalui link Ni. Ni one drive dari Microsoft One Drive untuk fail sharing SECARA PERCUMA BAQHANG!

Dengan menggunakan Fail Excel ini, Anda boleh Calculate GPA anda, Kira CGPA and untuk Semester Berkenaan dan Simpan ia sebagai rekod. Nanti kalau dah keluar result untuk akhir semester, Gunalah Excel ni untuk semak markah dalam portal, Kot2 AFSA salah kira manela tau kan.

Tekan link kat bawah ni untuk bukak One Drive then download!

https://1drv.ms/x/s!Ag3QKBBtk00maSDYBb4ohfUCXdw

Cari butang download!



Kalau korang xnak download and rasa leceh nak simpan la bagai, Boleh scroll smpai bawah page blog aku ni untuk calculate GPA atau CGPA korang secara online.

Kalau nak senang korang download sendiri je la, jangan amek dari member, takut2 member korang jenis lahanat nanti diorang ubah formula dalam sheet tu. Mmg shit ah.

Korang download je sendiri melalui one drive aku tu sebagai open source.
Budak2 network korang jangan hack aku plak!. hahahahah. okay,

End of Short Post. Goodluck guys, Study tinggi mane pon jangan sombong, Sebab Ilmu ALLAH yang punye, Bukan kite yang punye. Semoga korang Jadi Engineer yang terulung , same2 kite naekkan Negara kita ni Jom!

ByeBye



AHAH

P/S : Kalau ade yang tak kena atau cadangan untuk improve kan lagi , sila tulis kat ruangan komen, tenkiu guys

TRYING TO HUSTLE

Good evening guys. "How is life? "

That is the usual question i get from my old acquaintances whenever i met one. It is kind of hurting for us to think about our current achievements and try to avoid thinking the things we didnt do when we were young. Its starting to be clear now, the steps of life, the dos and don'ts. Hell yeah I too make mistakes, A Lot.




Regret do come afterwards at night before we close our eyes. During the next morning, I would be awake and ungrateful of what I owned and yet i still want more. In a positive way of life, I should get hard and hustle more to get grasp on everything that i could. When death shall come upon me, those objects and achievements would be meaningless.



Life is a bit odd, some people doesnt understand this concept and expect other people around them to do it like them. " Just join me doing this, and i would make you rich in one year". Yes I would join you if its wealth I seek, but no. I do realize with my qualification I can work at McDonald's that would pay me double than my current salary.

But, that action would made me abandon my passion towards my current low-pay career. Please do get this guys, I love the job for the job, not for salary or for the organization itself.

I have my own concept, the concept kind of depressingly weird for a few people. My concept of life is -

1. There is no such thing as a sufficient wealth, whenever we have a lot of money, we would spend them in large scale. The higher the earnings, The higher the spending. Always getting this concept into my mind to calm me down whenever i face a large scale of compulsory payment such as my car maintenance and others. The money comes a go, Just keep in mind where did i spend it on, is it on my desires or my needs? Avoid spending money on something worthless.

2. Having less would made me appreciate everything and everyone i have in my life. The phrase 'Stay Hungry' does derive the motivational value in me.

3. Knowledge is greater than money, as it would help me raise my future generations in a good way instead of spoiling them with money.

4. Accepting my identity. " Ukur baju di badan sendiri" . There is nothing to be ashamed of by being myself and accepting what i have. That does not mean for me to stop achieving great things, it is meant to be humble and make our enemy vulnerable by thinking that we can never get up from failures. Getting ourselves used to fall into the mud of shame so that whenever we fail we wont feel weird about it.

5. Try to make peace with our parents and our God. I dont know much about you guys, but having a religious view and trust to a God really gave me hope and believing that life have so much to offer rather than momentarily enjoyment. Each time I get into trouble or the trouble found me, i consider them as a test from ALLAH S.W.T. The first moment to face those test is to see the beauty through all of the pain in getting through it. Everything that comes have it own intention in life, they meant to make us better and see life more than just a pool of lusts.

Those 5 concepts are my point of view in life. If it does seems wrong to you, just ignore them.



As time moves by so quickly, a lot of decision making need do be done with my life. Luckily, I found the One that I want to spend my whole life with.

Now, I dont have to make decision by my own as she would give her opinion as well.



 Recently, I was thinking of quitting my desire to further out my study in a way to increase my qualifications academically. I done the statistical analysis in 5 years to come, i need to have a sufficient saving in order to marry the woman i love. When we got into a conversation about my intention, she persuade me to continue with my desire in further out my qualifications to bachelor's degree either via full time or part time study and worries about the financial condition later.



We have a big plan ahead of us. We want to put our best effort in getting ourselves together one day. I know it would be hard and bitter along the way, but i hope it would turn out to be Okay.

 I know that She love me, and I am also in love with her very much I could lose my common senses. We want to support each other by keeping ourselves strong and believing that it would all turn out Great.

Thank you guys for reading this far. I hope you gain something from this short post. Love u guys.

"Never stop writing, Stay Hungry, Stay Angry and Revenge is Good, Hustle!"

AHAH.

Spreading The Nutella onto my Toast of Life

Hello Guys, Thanks for reading my Blog. Although this blog has non of the benefit that could suited your life. It is only just me talking a some nonsense things about my experiences in life. Regarding from my previous post, I am currently working in automotive fields. It has been a year and a month of me working as i am today as a technical officer in computer aided design. There are a few ups and down during these duration of life. I met a lot of people with different types of backgrounds. Sometime I got angry during my working hours, I got mad with everyone around me.


As my taste bud of life is bitter, I was back then couldnt realize the numerous things that i endure until now. I was ungrateful and I regret it. A lot of people around me have their own negative element, all of them affected me heavily and I took the pill of pain from them. Until I had to get a rest from those heavy pressure and that action also take a huge effect on my earnings for the month. Nevertheless, the effect made me exhausted and making me think about my purpose and what had ALLAH S.W.T planned for me. I hope that the plan would be great and all i can do was being grateful and just start new again every single day with the best effort i can give to my employer.

I wasnt happy neither sad, I felt empty and stressed out. I start to compare myself with other people around me. Some of them born on piles of money and some of them just born with high brain capability. Once I heard someone said, We can plan all the things we want with our life, But the best planner is ALLAH and He knew better than us. Maybe I can risk everything that i have and end up dead in 3 of the morning and my earnings would be useless, no one will remember me then but only my deeds would follow me to the afterlife. There are people out there enjoyed a good life, travel all around the world and opened their eyes of the reality and there would be me standing in the production life of a factory trying to earn anything that i can with a little knowledge and a hope that i can provide for my sons life.

There has not been a chance for me to further out my studies yet. My final decision was to do part time study and start to saving up money to pay for the knowledge as my company unwilling to sponsor my study. I have a hard time in this life but i am trying to do my best and I do realize that some of you guys are going through way more struggle and pain than me. I just didnt have the right person to tell my problem to. I also assure that neither of anyone around me can understand my situation. Like the number goes, 90% of the people just dont care and the other 10% are glad for my problems.

ALLAH S.W.T is my God, the only God that I trust. As He would give me this struggle to only made me a better person one day. I have the confident that He would never leave me and always listen to my prayer. I dont care how I would end up one day, although if i did tried my best. Only ALLAH knew what best for me. Human can be greedy and I wish that I wouldnt end up as one. May ALLAH S.W.T provide me sufficient property and not plenty so that I can always remember Him as the Creator and always remember that I would end up dead on the bare ground of this earth.

I am enjoying my job now. Although it is full of stress and bitterness, I do get to know the people around me and they are being good to me. Loving these strangers when we share our smoking place while talking about what we think about anything.

What  a human is without a goal and a hope of life. May we all end up in a good way.

Thank you guys for reading.