Spreading The Nutella onto my Toast of Life

Hello Guys, Thanks for reading my Blog. Although this blog has non of the benefit that could suited your life. It is only just me talking a some nonsense things about my experiences in life. Regarding from my previous post, I am currently working in automotive fields. It has been a year and a month of me working as i am today as a technical officer in computer aided design. There are a few ups and down during these duration of life. I met a lot of people with different types of backgrounds. Sometime I got angry during my working hours, I got mad with everyone around me.


As my taste bud of life is bitter, I was back then couldnt realize the numerous things that i endure until now. I was ungrateful and I regret it. A lot of people around me have their own negative element, all of them affected me heavily and I took the pill of pain from them. Until I had to get a rest from those heavy pressure and that action also take a huge effect on my earnings for the month. Nevertheless, the effect made me exhausted and making me think about my purpose and what had ALLAH S.W.T planned for me. I hope that the plan would be great and all i can do was being grateful and just start new again every single day with the best effort i can give to my employer.

I wasnt happy neither sad, I felt empty and stressed out. I start to compare myself with other people around me. Some of them born on piles of money and some of them just born with high brain capability. Once I heard someone said, We can plan all the things we want with our life, But the best planner is ALLAH and He knew better than us. Maybe I can risk everything that i have and end up dead in 3 of the morning and my earnings would be useless, no one will remember me then but only my deeds would follow me to the afterlife. There are people out there enjoyed a good life, travel all around the world and opened their eyes of the reality and there would be me standing in the production life of a factory trying to earn anything that i can with a little knowledge and a hope that i can provide for my sons life.

There has not been a chance for me to further out my studies yet. My final decision was to do part time study and start to saving up money to pay for the knowledge as my company unwilling to sponsor my study. I have a hard time in this life but i am trying to do my best and I do realize that some of you guys are going through way more struggle and pain than me. I just didnt have the right person to tell my problem to. I also assure that neither of anyone around me can understand my situation. Like the number goes, 90% of the people just dont care and the other 10% are glad for my problems.

ALLAH S.W.T is my God, the only God that I trust. As He would give me this struggle to only made me a better person one day. I have the confident that He would never leave me and always listen to my prayer. I dont care how I would end up one day, although if i did tried my best. Only ALLAH knew what best for me. Human can be greedy and I wish that I wouldnt end up as one. May ALLAH S.W.T provide me sufficient property and not plenty so that I can always remember Him as the Creator and always remember that I would end up dead on the bare ground of this earth.

I am enjoying my job now. Although it is full of stress and bitterness, I do get to know the people around me and they are being good to me. Loving these strangers when we share our smoking place while talking about what we think about anything.

What  a human is without a goal and a hope of life. May we all end up in a good way.

Thank you guys for reading.